Hell or highwater

8/1/06

"I can see a light that is coming
For the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these struggles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise you
Still I will praise you

Oh no You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me."

Part of "You Never Let Go" by Matt Redman (on Passion 06)

Exodus 14:10-14 -
"10 As Pharaoh drew near, the Israelites looked back, and there were the Egyptians advancing on them. In great fear the Israelites cried out to the Lord. 11They said to Moses, ‘Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you have taken us away to die in the wilderness? What have you done to us, bringing us out of Egypt? 12Is this not the very thing we told you in Egypt, “Let us alone and let us serve the Egyptians”? For it would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the wilderness.’ 13But Moses said to the people, ‘Do not be afraid, stand firm, and see the deliverance that the Lord will accomplish for you today; for the Egyptians whom you see today you shall never see again. 14The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.'"

Whoa.
How often do we - because of its accompanying suffering and sacrifice - question whether or not we really want salvation? I mean, the idea of freedom from slavery is alluring... who wouldn't jump at the idea?
But then I find myself standing in an impossible situation - an impass on one side and an enemy on the other... and I don't feel so free and I certainly don't feel safe.

God alone is my hope.

right where He wants me to be but I have to admit to frequent second thoughts.

But I've made my decision.
And I'm going with God...
He is truly my only hope
And my salvation.
Blind faith is over-romanticized
Very terrifying
And here I stand
Completely in the dark
My only hope is that pillar of fire in the distance.

Ah.

So he has made a way for me -
Be it through the water and wilderness -
Onward I go.